"THANK YOU"...............

HALLELUJAH!!!!! It's Friday......the first thing I'm thankful for, well, maybe not the first thing-but one of the many things I'm thankful for this day.

As I was paying my light bill that's due today, but I don't get paid until Tuesday, I began to feel frustrated and disgusted about living paycheck to paycheck.  But as soon as the feeling came, it went, and was replaced with a feeling of thankfulness.  I began to thank God for the fact that I did have the money (in my reserve stash) to pay the bill that's due today, in fact, I have enough to cover everything  I need to this weekend.

I thank God the temp assignment (that was only supposed to last 3 days!!) is still paying my monthly obligations!  I remember sitting in my room, Feburary 2010, wondering how I was going to pay my bills because my savings was about to run out, when the call came from Burnett Staffing for this assignment. God is Always on time to meet our needs, and for this I say, "thank you".

"Thank you God" for holding me close when I wanted to let go, when I had no hope and saw no end and wanted to end my life. Thank you.

"Thank you" for keeping my mind when I thought I was going to lose it. As I reflect, I know I could not have made it without You. The times I struggled to put one foot in front of the other, I know were the times You carried me..... Thank you.

"Thank you" for being there to listen when I thought I was all alone, when my closest friends were too busy to take my calls of desperation, too busy to lend a listening ear, to busy to comfort me and my calls went to voice mail. When I turned, You were there, You were always there, with out-stretched arms....waiting for me to realize I wasn't alone in what I thought were my darkest times... And for that, I want to say, "thank you".

"Thank you God" for life, health, strength, my sanity in a difficult marriage, my two beautiful boys, my two yr temp assignment that's providing income, for loving me for me...quirks and all, LOL, I know You love me!!!

In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you. 

1 Thessalonians 5:18

Ahhhhh, now I feel much better....thank you....

I Can't Believe This....."Menstural Moment"

WARNING..... If you are a guy who has stumbled across this page, you may want to back out slowly. Lay on that back arrow until you have backed this thang up!! I'm serious run! Run like the wind, all the while thanking God you don't have a monthly cycle, at least not one that includes bleeding!!

OK Ladies, I tell you I was so nerved up!!! One hour, and a coconut mocha frapp later I'm finally somewhat calm enough to write this.  So I'm laying around the house in my PJ's enjoying the day and recouping from a full day Sunday. And, you know how it is girls, cycle or not, we sometimes have those days where we do absolutely nothing pertaining to personal hygiene....no shower, no flossing or brushing, and the facial cleansing routine is limited to picking the "sleep" out of the corners of our eyes!

Yes, this was one of those days for me..... However, as I was pulling clothes out of the dryer to be folded and put away, I ran across more of my favorite lounge-wear. And, at 5:30pm CT, I decided why not. I can at least take a shower and put on fresh PJ's. And boy am I glad I did!!!

The case of the "missing tampon"..... Well, I guess you actually have to know something is missing before you can make a case of it... And I had not realized it was missing!!!!!! So I'm in the shower!, and I start to clean "down south", when I feel a string... WHAT?! That couldn't be, because I'd gone through at least four pads!! But there it was! Oh my God!!!! A tampon, from Sunday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Talk about freaking out, I was shocked, and I'm hoping not toxic shocked!

I was absolutely horrified, realizing I had been wearing this thing almost 24 hrs! I'm past 40! I've never done anything like this before, how the heck did I forget to remove a tampon? I guess after evening church service, I was so focused on having my left-over lobster and seafood pescatore, and magnum bar, and chocolate chip cookies from the Grand Lux Cafe.... I mentioned having my cycle, right?..that I totally forgot about the inserted tampon, slapped on a pad, and rushed to the kitchen.

All I know is, when I did make the gruesome discovery, I got an instant headache.  Guess who will be surfing the net for symptoms of Toxic Shock Syndrome.....and how to aurthor your "last will in testament"!

So, anyone else care to share their I can't believe this "Menstural Moment"??????

Saturday and Sunday Morning Serenity......

I absolutely LOVE to wake up early on Saturday and Sunday mornings....Why?, because everyone's still asleep, and the only sound is the hum of the ceiling fan over the breakfast room table and, of course, the gurgling of the coffee pot.  There are times, however, when I don't get to appreciate this great luxury.... Because, there are times when my "roommate" (recognized as spouse by the state of Texas) is up extra early, with the TV blaring! Omg!! Need I say, that is never the most pleasant way for me to wake up. Anyway, back to my rising of preference. I usually let Basil the dog out, and enjoy the stillness of outside and the chirping of the birds.

There's also something else I appreciate about the mornings, every morning, there are two violets from the neighbor's yard that bloom between the crack in my fence. They are a lovely, soft purple, and I love the fact that this is shared with me. I have grown to appreciate the simple things, real simple, like a great cup of coffee, silence, birds singing, the spontaneous violets, the simplicity of Gods word, a church service that leaves you revived and renewed, genuine sisterhood.... You get me??? The list could go on.... Please take a moment to share your simple pleasures.

Thought of the day....
Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. -Philippians 4:8

It's a Fabulous Friday!!!!!

A gi-normous sigh of relief.... Why? Simply because it's Friday. I have scheduled the day off, which by the way, the "chill-uns" are totally unaware of... and the person, who the state of Texas still recognizes as my legal spouse (yes, there's a story here, and yes it's dysfunctional, introductions to be made later) is out of town.  All praises to God!!!! I know someone out there can relate, HAPPY to see them go, and a dehydrating case of diarrhea upon their return!!

Anyway, we survived the first week of back to school, I have a 7th grader.  I took the day off to spend with the silence of my house.  I dropped my 12 yr old son off at school, wished him a great day, and hid out at my local Starbucks until my 23 year old son left for work.  I ran a few errands, spent some "diva on a dime" time at Marshall's, and here I am- my favorite place.... On the lounge in my bedroom, with my "blankee", and my overweight poodle-bijon at my feet... Listen, the sweet sound of silence.... It's a beautiful thing.

Although I dont get paid for this day off, currently a temp employee, it's still worth it for my mental health sake.  You understand "Girlfriends", where I'm coming from??? The checkbook says "are you crazy? You can't afford to take a day off!" but your mental state is whispering "gurrllll, don't miss this opportunity".

If push comes to shove, or in my case broke, for taking this day, I can always dip or dive into my emergency cash fund. Which I seem to be doing for one thing or another whether I take a day off or not! But for the most part, I live on a pretty tight budget, like most of the stars in the real world. And then there's my son, the 23'yr old habitual borrower! There's one, or something equivalent in every household..... Something lurking about, waiting to suck the last of life outta you!

I am soooooooooooo happy he finally has a permanent, fulltime job, that he can make a career out of.  And even though he's been there for only a week, he got his first payroll deposit on yesterday. But guess what???? He still asked to borrow money earlier this week. I tell you, I am so worn out from this... I know it's my fault, I need to change MY behavior, in order to change his! So my new resolution is to "just say no". Besides, he needs to learn to manage his money and be self sufficient! When I was his age, I had a new Saab (that was the car back in da day). I paid my car note, insurance,  gave my mom money for bills (I did not "lay up" on Miss Dorothy!) and brought groceries! I don't remember ever, ever, having a paycheck to do whatever I wanted to do, I always had financial responsibilities.

I was never a financial burden on my mother. I remember being 16 at a dress shop with my mom, I saw a pair of Italian leather peep-toe pumps.... Little did I know at the time that I had been infected with "shoe-freak-itis"!! Which, by the way, has been passed to both of my children. Any way, the point here is, I did not trouble my mother to buy me these shoes. The next day, I caught the bus back to that store, and applied for a job to work after school. They hired me! And, when I got my first paycheck, I bought my first pair of peep-toe pumps, and it's been an on-going love affair!